Questioning His Design

This photo was taken just before we were off to our cruise vacation! I had been under the weather that week. I wasn’t eating great and I wasn’t able to workout. I remember feeling disappointed that I couldn’t “prep” my body for vacation like I wanted to, as if that would add to my enjoyment of the trip. Instead of getting excited for our cruise all week, I was been stressing about how much weight I would gain. I’d been thinking about how I’ll limit my sweets and carbs and make sure to work out everyday.

I never used to think I struggled with body image. “I’m not overweight, I don’t binge eat, I’m fairly confident in myself,” my brain says to itself. But, my actions say otherwise. When I really stop and think about it, I realize that every day I’m fighting a battle between feeling good and not feeling good enough. I want to quit constantly checking how flat or bloated my tummy is. I want to treat myself on vacation and not feel guilty about it. Every day I want to try a little more to let my Creator take His rightful spot in place of my self-image. He created me (and you) by His good, wonderful, perfect design. Who am I to question that?